Say nothing, act casual.

Not literally, of course. I refer here to my heart and my head.

I have always had the fortune of being able to understand the difference between the things that I feel and the way things are. That said, I am not attempting to indicate that I always act in such a manner.  In the last ten years, I have made a very deliberate effort to act upon the way things are, despite how it makes me feel. The past few weeks have made this effort an extreme challenge. 

I have found myself in two emotionally charged situations, both of which upset me in entirely different ways and scales.  I am doing my very best to be logical on both fronts, and I am, unfortunately, grossly dissatisfied with the ongoing results. I know that acting with emotion will do nothing to better either situation, and while logic is the most fitting course of action, it does nothing to comfort me. I hate basically waiting for it all to blow over. I suck at chilling the fuck out and letting things happen. Anyone that knows me personally knows that. 

Fuck this. Time for Chinese.